In January, Halsey made a surprise announcement: she was expecting her first child with boyfriend Alev Aydin. She dropped the news along with photos of her growing baby bump on social media, aptly captioned “surprise! 🍼🌈👼🏻.”
She and Alev also exchanged the sweetest messages in the comments. , “Heart so full, I love you, sweetness,” Alev wrote, to which Halsey replied, “I love you!!!!!! And I love this mini human already.”
What she doesn’t seem to appreciate, however, speculations about the process – and went on social media to shut them down.
“why is it ok to speculate and pass judgement about fertility and conception?” Hlasey wrote on Instagram Stories on Monday (March 1).
“My pregnancy was 100% planned, and I tried very hard for this bb. But I would be just as happy even if it were another way,” she continued.
Halsey has been candid with fans about her struggles with her reproductive health – from her endometriosis diagnosis, suffering a miscarriage, to seeking treatment and later finding out that becoming a mom was “looking like something that’s gonna happen for me. That’s a miracle.”
She once revealed in an interview that she’d suffered a miscarriage while on tour – just hours before she was scheduled to take the stage.
“It’s the angriest performance that I’ve ever done in my life,” she told Rolling Stone in a 2016 interview. “That was the moment of my life where I thought to myself, ‘I don’t feel like a f–king human being anymore.’”
“I want to be a mom more than I want to be a pop star,” Halsey later added. “More than I want to be anything in the world.”
She even wrote a song titled “More” in her album Manic.
Sharing the story behind the track in her album notes for Apple Music, she wrote, “I’ve been really open about my struggles with reproductive health, about wanting to freeze my eggs and having endometriosis and things like that. For a long time, I didn’t think that having a family was something I was going to be able to do, and it’s very, very important to me.”
“Then one day my OB-GYN tells me it’s looking like I maybe can, and I was so moved. It felt like this ascension into a different kind of womanhood. All of a sudden, everything is different,” she continued. “I’m not going to go tour myself to death because I have nothing else to do and I’m overcompensating for not being able to have this other thing that I really want. Now, I have a choice. I’ve never had a choice before.”
Weeks after first sharing the baby news with fans, Halsey opened up about how her current pregnancy journey “leveled [her] perception of gender entirely.”
“I’ve been thinking lots about my body,” she wrote in a candid post on Instagram. “It’s strange to watch yourself change so quickly. I thought pregnancy would give me very strong, binary feelings about ‘womanhood’ but truly it has leveled my perception of gender entirely.”
“My sensitivity to my body has made me hyper aware of my humanness and that’s all. Doing a remarkable thing. And it’s grand. I hope the feeling lasts,” she went on.